Heeeey remember me? I used to blog here quite frequently? I’m back. I thought I’d give a little patchwork update with hard and happy things that have been going on. I’m so thankful for the healing power of Jesus and am ready for a new season!
-Shep turned five and will start kindergarten on Monday. A whole blog post about his birthday party and my attempt to make ‘real’ birthday party food is in the works. It will be amusing.
-I am starting to want to get dressed and wear makeup again. Slowly but surely. It’s so weird to be in a rough place and suddenly lose the desire to do the things that used to be fun to you. But all summer long, the thought of getting dressed and getting ‘fixed’ has seemed like a task that must occasionally be overcome, rather than something fun I do every day. I’m glad that this is starting to change.
-After working soooo hard to get out of debt, we are now back in. This time it was not our fault and there was nothing we could have done to stop it. It was a really big blow which made other blows hurt that much more.
–A few weeks ago, we had lice. As in my children and I. Summer. From. Hell.
-Jake works for the local triple A baseball team in their tech department during baseball season every year. The season is drawing to a close, which is good/bad. Good because last week he was gone six nights in a row. As in most days got up and left at 8:30 am and came home at 10:30 pm. It’s bad because the extra money has been helping.
-Rhett is so dang cute I can’t stand it. I wish you could hear his little voice! Ugh, it’s the cutest. He’s started responding when I tell him I love him, “I love you toooo.” The sweetest sound ever.
-I am finally starting to feel like I am moving through my grief instead of feeling stuck in aching pain. I had a Restoring the Foundations ministry session at my church, where this couple just prayed with me for three hours. I highly recommend this to anyone who is going through miscarriage (or anything else for that matter).
-I’m dealing with adrenal fatigue. Adrenal fatigue is something that probably most people in our culture deal with on some level. For me I think it was brought on by extended periods of stress and burden due to having babies, losing jobs, the ensuing financial hardship, burning the midnight oil getting my business going, and then finally the stress/trauma of miscarriage. One day when I was researching something else, I came across this article about adrenal fatigue and knew as I was reading it that it was talking about me. Turns out I was right!
-Speaking of de-stressing, I started watching Dr. Caroline Leaf’s “Who Switched Off My Brain” videos and they are phenomenal. She goes through the actual science of the brain and how the science affirms what scripture says. She also talks about how to effectively control your thoughts and how that affects your health. Amazing. She also has a book by the same title. And if you want to be encouraged throughout the day, you can follow her on Twitter.
-I started watching Julia Child’s original tv show from the 60’s called The French Chef. It is fabulous. Not only is she a great chef to learn from, and just so cute and funny (that voice!) to boot, but it’s in black and white, and it was definitely shot in one take with no editing. For example, if someone bumps the camera, they just keep calm and carry on. When she uses a meat cleaver to whack the head off of a fish, the ‘WHACK’ sound is really really loud, because there was no sound editing. At the end of the first episode, after she signed off with her little, ‘Bon Appetite’ she walked away and frowned noticeably before she was completely off camera. You can get the DVDs in the mail from Netflix. So enjoyable.
-I’ve been making my own sandwich bread, which is something I really enjoy. It’s also been fun to call my Granny and learn about bread-making from her when I have questions. I want to learn as much as I can from her, she is so amazing in so many ways.
-Last week, I took a deep breath, opened up my computer and took one of the hard drives out, plugged it in externally to make sure it still worked (it did) and then put the whole thing back together. This was a big scary thing for me, and I felt very empowered after it was done. I’m sure I will feel empowered again when take the time to reformat my external storage hard drive. But I think I’ll scatter my empowering moments out a little bit. Surely I’ll need to feel empowered next week right??
-Fall is my busiest time of year in photography. This fall is also the first year that I’ll have a kid in school, which will bring some forced discipline I’m not too excited about, but I know will be good for me. I’m trying to figure out how I can tackle this season effectively while staying in a place of rest for my adrenal glands.
-We have a wonderful amazing girl living with us right now. Her name is Jenny and I really think she’s the best thing that has happened to me this year. No lie. When I was baking for Shep’s birthday party, I called her at work and she went and brought me something I’d forgotten at the store in between being at work and going to a work-dinner. I almost cried. She also regularly helps me with my dishes and unloads my dishwasher AND watches my kids. I’m going to lock her up and keep her forever.